The ‘I’ Syndrome

“Everyone does what is good for themselves. No one ever questions if what they do good for themselves is good for the country. Thus, the country is always left behind. That is the missing link for a good closure. That is the reason why familiar leaders so called the old guards who has been around in every fraternity MUST GO! They lack foresight and vision. They are self centered. They can’t bring change. Because they themselves won’t change for the good of the country. They can’t forsake that ‘I’ syndrome for ‘US’. They are divisive. They move their pawns to benefit themselves. And still think they are clever. Yes they are clever. In manipulating the naive. Sham these people without conscience. They are the weeds in our garden! When we uproot them, we must also uproot what they have put in place beit the system, the standard operating procedures and their policies.

Wrong Books

Rich people read books according to dan lok. But look at me. I have a storehouse full of books. But I’m not rich. Perhaps I’m reading the wrong books. I should be reading books on how to be rich I think.

The Malay Psyche

“Kj should understand the Malay psyche better than to make that mistake of wanting to take them to the blue ocean although a drastic change could be the answer.
Most Malays doesn’t mind being followers so long as they have a leader to look up to. But they can’t imagine a leader serving them and amalgamating with them like buddies and calling each other ‘bro’. What more, dirtying their hands at ground level. To these traditionalist, when a person earns or is bestowed a pangkat(position; title), that to them is as good as being a conferred leader and a leader is someone that they should serve, not being served, and patut di hormati (deserve to be respected). That’s their adat (custom) like it or not. To them, hormat is again tied to taat and taat again is tied to setia. And that is the reason why these members hung on. Leaders are to be respected. And they should be served like kings as in the olden days. Respect to them is tied to obedience is also tied to loyalty. And that’s how it works with them.
Thus, for as long as they are comfortable with their current leaders and their policy, that automatically will translate into votes. And if not for the lost, they wouldn’t want to be alerted that they should change at all. But kj went all out to say that he will work for the goodness of all races, not only his, and that’s where to them, he got it all wrong. Even though he is a better debater.
And by wanting to lead them to the blue ocean is like paving the way into the unknown, grappling with uncertainty and fear at the same time. What more, kj is promoting policies that is closely tied if not similar to the policy of the party that just won. And that again is something these loyalists could not accept and kj being a Malay himself should understand.
To the Malays, muka and maruah is important. Trailing the winner with policies not originally their own is as good as “jatuh muka dan maruah” (losing face as well as pride).
On the other hand , the protectionist policy expounded by zahid sounded more palatable and works better for these loyal members. Throughout the debate, zahid offers a policy of pride and protection from harm. He understands their psyche not to jatuh muka or maruah and safeguarded their dignity by never confessing that his party’s policy and strategy is wrong. Instead he pointed fingers at his opposition. He insisted on the rights of the Malays in all the decision making if he wins. And what a better way than to be a leader and father figure at a time of fear and change. Yet remain exclusive to them. Zahid won.And true to his promise, he offered kj the Secretary Generals post which kj declined.
Kj did not stick to his promise of remaining loyal and working for the goodness of umno even though he loses. That’s what he said in his closing speech.”

I Rather They Suffer Than We Suffer

“If one keeps on neglecting creativity but works in a context of acceptability as according to that school of thought which nurture them, then we unconsciously stunt our inner Easternmost expressions by paying homage to Western literal ideas, subconsciously elevating them to iconic towkay status to make them relevant and in turn, reduces our own chance of making our way to the top.
Schools of music till today still stresses on Brahm and Bach. Schools of writing still pays homage to Shakespeare and Wilde, not Tagore or Han Suyin. Schools of visual art history conveniently branded us as offshoots of abstract expressionism. We have been suppressed if not, being denied our own identity. And until we assert a language of our own, we can’t flourish as unique individuals. Our arts and literal history should thus be rewritten and pushed further back to the time where our ancestors began it all. Maybe back to the aborigines. They are unique individuals that did not arise feeding from Western classicals as we have always been, and that’s the reason we are conveniently placed into neat identifiable parcels ready for the slaughterhouse or be labeled as ‘aliens’.
Western ideas propound that without education one will fail. I beg to differ. My very own forefather, the uneducated rich, has proven them wrong. The Westerners also has an uncanny habit to device all sorts of courses and tailored them to suit their own ideals while we in turn, enrolled ourselves into their classes to earn a degree studying about our own culture, tradition and way of life. Seriously??? The profoundness of a language is also not important as our forefathers again has proven. Living with different ethnicities, we never have trouble understanding each other and getting our messages across despite the littlest we knew about someone else’s language.
If I may stress further, Eastern writings, performances, and visual expressionism should not be assessed by comparing them to Western standards and principles or being lumped into pattern moulds set for us, otherwise we’d forever be regarded as an off track or an off shoot of the Western system. Orientalism too, has no place in today’s contemporary society. To get rid of being stereotyped, we should all rise to the occasion and be ourselves. We should write as how we write according to how our natural senses evoke us, and be as distinct as how our ancestors are, swaying to their own wayang, and painting with the scurried soul of an Easterner. Our works should overwhelm them with just that tinge of ourselves and we should all live as how we are, being accorded a rightful place on the map of the world. What I just lamented may sound discomforting to the Westerners but I rather they suffer than we suffer, the earful .”

My Writing Style

“I don’t write to please anybody but myself. If and when I write, my choice of words are mine. That’s what makes it distinct from others. That’s called style. My writing style. Not yours. Not others. Every writer has their own style of writing. If you find that hard to chew, you are probably never a writer. Thus, if you don’t like my style of writing , I am not compelling you to read what I write. If I publish a book, don’t buy my book. Because you need to possess an expanded brain up to that level of consciousness to understand why a writer writes the way they write. My choice of words are sacred to me. It probably doesn’t mean anything to you. So be it. A good artist would have told you the same thing if you try to change his style.”

Stop Policing Others

Malaysians are too rich. It’s only people who does not need to worry about their pocket could they find time to play God or be God’s gatekeeper. Complaining about the dirt in other people’s backyard does not absolve you from your own. Look inward. There you will find a lot of filth staining your own morality. Clean them up since you are too free. Stop policing others….

Past means Yesterday

Some people like to hang on to the past without realizing that past means yesterday. And yesterday lives behind us. If you wish to move forward but run with yesterday, then you’re running backwards. That is why you are left behind….


I have always maintained that eulogy is best given when that person is alive. Not before they are born, not after they are dead. That is the only way they know their self worth, or defend themselves, just in case you are lying tongue in cheek.